Today your Dad is flying to Perth and then on to Thailand for a work conference and I am sitting her listening to a beautiful CD that your Uncle Pablo made for us. It is magic and as I listen to it, I can feel you moving inside me. I am just so overcome with such a beautiful gift as it is filled with so much love and emotion, I find myself crying with many of the songs. They are so touching and knowing that my dear friend Pablo choose them for us and that these are some of his favorite songs...I can not think of a better gift to give a child and a mother as you can share this gift of sound before you are born. It will help you to feel the beauty, power and emotion of the world that you are going to enter in such a short time and introduces you to my special people. I am so blessed to have such dear friends who are like an extended family network around the world...like a magical net that I have cast throughout my lifetime and one that will catch me if I ever need love and support. Good friends are essential to a rich life as it is so nice to share the riches of your life with the people who you love and who you know will be there for you to love you if ever you need a hand or a hug. Listening to these songs has really made me miss these dear people who you will meet one day when we travel to the U.S.A.
I feel very fortunate that I have arrived to a place in my life where I feel I know where I stand in what I believe in for myself and yet, I still try to be open to new ideas, but some things I learned as a child, I have come to realize are not true for me anymore. And you will do the same as you grow up and find the way that you wish to walk through this world...you will find what fits in with the way you want to live your life and you will discard what you do not need...As it happened last weekend, I had to make it clear to your Nana Power that I do not have the same belief system as she does and that your dad and I do not plan on baptizing you into a religion. I don't believe that we are born with original sin as the God that exists in my heart does not judge us, but gives us freedom to love and to learn and to make mistakes...this special force can not be contained by a religion or defined by man....it is beyond our understanding and yet, as human beings, who want to be comforted by the "known" and something "tangible and concrete," we try to define it with words, ceremonies, religions that fall so very short and distort the beauty and magic of that unifying force within each and every one of us and in everything...so no, I don't think that your Nanna Power and I will ever see eye to eye, but that is her journey and the way that she has found is best for her to live her life. Your Dad was so lovely in the way he helped me to understand that I just need to remember to say, "Shield's UP!" when I come across someone else's opinion as this is the first of many times that someone is going to have an opinion of how we should raise you. And I just need to learn that they are entitled to their opinion as much as I am entitled to mine, but I in no way need to feel pressure from them as we are responsible for raising you in the way that we think is best and to give you the freedom to spread your little wings and take the direction that is best for you when it is time for you to leave our nest...knowing that we are always here for you and that no matter how far you fly....our love for you will always travel with you. No religion can capture that love and define the infinite, at least that is what I have come to realize, but if one day, you feel you can relate to one of the religions of the world and want to be apart of that religion that is your journey and each of us needs to find the path that is best for us. We love you very much little one and that is what matters more than anything else in the world.
Well, my little butterfly inside....time for us to take a nap...Love, Momma
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