41 weeks plus one day

Hi Little One in There,

I just wrote a message to a friend that sums up my feelings today, but to be honest, I have been really thankful that you have chosen to come after your due date as it has given your Dad, Maia and I some lovely quiet time together as a family. We have had a mini-vacation with your Dad being home and just spending time together, but last night I just hit a bit of a wall when I realized that I was not going into labour and that most likely I was going to wake up this morning still pregnant. I am just really anxious to meet you and have the four of us together. And like I know so well, I can't be pregnant forever and you will most likely be with us within the week. You have every right to choose your own birthday and time of birth and thank goodness we are having a home birth so I am not getting pressure from "the system" to have gone into labour by this week as the hospital system expects women to have had their babies by 42 weeks and it is usually this coming week that they would start talking induction, which I think is unfair if everything is fine in there. Somehow all those astrological charts and signs do have significance in how the person is influenced in their personality and life and so why not let you determine what is best for you in this life. I would not want to do anything to get this party started unless you are ready to claim it as your birthday, so I am trying my very best to be patient and wait for your special moment. I just hit a wall last night and this morning and I am trying to shift it and just writing this message to you to say that I respect and love you is making me feel better. The other control freak side of me needs to be put to rest as I let go and trust my body and you, my baby.

Letter to my friend Beth:

I really need a prayer for peace and patience as I just feel tears in my eyes as I write this as I have hit a bit of a wall as of last night and I am getting tired of waking up every morning still pregnant. I don't feel physically bad, but I feel myself getting frustrated with the baby of all people wondering why on earth I am still pregnant nearly eight days after his or her due date. I knew that most babies were late, but most, from my estimation, come within the week after their day, so to still be pregnant today, it just has me feeling a bit down. If I take a step back and look at the big picture, I probably only have about one more week and I enjoyed reading the 1/1/10 birth date as a cool day to be born from your perspective. I enjoyed being born in 1970 as it was always easy to figure out my age...laugh. So anyway, thank you for your thoughts. I am going to make my best effort to enjoy today as I know it is about to get really busy, but now I really don't care, I just want to meet our baby and be on the other side of my new life with two kids. Nine months is a long time, but these last weeks have felt even longer.

Back to my post:

So little one, I patiently wait to birth you and see who you are as this minutes feel like hours, these days like weeks...

I love you my little one,

Momma