I am just wondering what day you have chosen to come to us. Your due date was December 19 and I had convinced myself that you would be born in mid-December..laugh. Once I passed December 15, I let go of my frustration and now I am just curious when you will arrive to us although I am feeling a little anxious as the only day our mid-wife can not come to support us in December 25 from about 1-10pm. I really want to birth with Betty as this is my last birth and I really don't want to have a baby born on Christmas day as no matter how hard we try it is hard to share a birthday and have Christmas dinner on the same day. Boxing day would also be a day that would take away your spotlight a bit although we would do our best to make your birthday special. I was so hoping you would be born before Christmas and there is still time, but I need to respect the day you have chosen as I can't figure out why you are still in there so low in my pelvis and seemingly so ready to come out to meet us, but I also know that little babies possess a wisdom and they know the best time for themselves and the family.
Your Dad finished up work yesterday and is now "working from home" so to speak. We are going to go to the beach this morning and I will get to have my ocean swim with you in the ocean pools as that is one thing I have really wanted to do in this pregnancy and just have not had a chance or it has been too cold to do so. Then, we will go have a nice breakfast and have a walk on the beach. We are going to enjoy our days together with Maia on her own as there is something simple about just focusing on one child and now I know I will need to share myself between the two of you. It feels so right to have two children and I am really wanting to just step into that new change, but we might as well enjoy these days while I can have some quiet time to myself before it gets busy with you, our new little baby.
In the background of the last three weeks, your Nanna, Dad's Mum, has had a difficult recovery following routine gallbladder surgery. There must have been an error made during the procedure and it left her in hospital for two weeks. She just came home on Saturday and still has a drainage tube and water on her lung. She is slowly recovering, but seems to be on the other side of the worst of it.
Well, off I go to get ready for the beach. I need to get the items we will need and cream up your sister and myself.
Every night I go to bed, I wonder if tonight will be the night and then I wake up in the morning to see the sun shining. It is strange to go over a "due date," as every day that goes by seems like an eternity and although you are only three days past your date, I just can't help but feel like it is weeks...laugh. I guess I have been ready for so many weeks, it just feels strange to still be pregnant.
Well, you can't stay in there forever and I expect you will be with us sometime this week. I just hope you don't come on Christmas.
Lots of love to you my little one. Momma, Daddy and Maia are anxiously awaiting your arrival.
Mumma
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